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Tuesday, November 1, 2011

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i'll never ever blame you. it's all my fault. i didn't treat you right.

i hope you'll get him and last long :) i'll move on, okay? thanks for everything.

i'm glad i'm once yours. thanks for cheering me up when i'm down.

thanks for knocking some sense into my head when i'm stupid.

thanks for all those gifts you gave me. i'm sorry for not being

a good boyfriend. i'm sorry for not sending you home.

i'm sorry for making you cry. i'm sorry for making you wait.

i'm sorry for making you worry about me. those 1 month plus was worth it :)

i swear no one has ever mean so much to me.

but you did.

you used to be my princess/the queen of my heart/babygirl/

mmmmmm ok and, my whole world.

maybe we're not meant for each other:/

i've never ever been this hurt before. i guess i was really in love with you.

but now i really have to move on

but only god knows that i can't. hah. damn girl.

Siti NurulNazirah Bte Mhd S,

you know that i love you with all my heart. i've never ever

sacrificed so much for anyone except you. i thought that i could be with

you till i graduate from my school.

but sadly, everything ended so quickly.

if i treated you right, you wouldn't have fall for him.

but i can't do anything else cause i'm nothing to you:'(

honestly , when we're together, i felt like a toy.

i felt like you used me. but i can't assume anyhow.

i really can't fucking get mad at you for so long.

why? because i really love you.

some people may say "fuck. you're still young. you don't know what's love."

well you know what? fuck those who says that.

i am who i am. i may be only 14 but i think like an adult.

i make decisions carefully.

that is why i'm letting you go.

go ahead and live your life, sweetheart :)

i hope you'll be happy when you're with him :)

i hope he doesn't repeat my mistakes. i hope he doesn't make you wait.

i hope he makes you really happy.

i hope he doesn't break your heart.

if he does, i'm gonna break his face.

i'm still gonna takecare of you okay? it's just that you won't notice me.

i hope that we won't lose contact.

mahal kita. te amo. wo ai ni. i love you<3

sweetheart, goodluck in your life :)

Monday, October 24, 2011

sup. blogging again. since holidays are coming, i'll be active at blog :)

i'm so happy that i finally found my dream girl<3 she makes me feel happy. i can't imagine life without her. she's an angel that god sent from above to make my life perfect. she's the queen of my heart. no words can describe how amazing she is. how perfect she is to me. i want no one but her. :)

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

am i falling in love? that girl sacrifices just to meet me but end up i can't meet her :/ first time i met her, didnt thought that i'd fall in love. but suprisingly, i think im falling for her <3

Friday, September 2, 2011

fucked up bruh. seriously. i don't know what to do anymore..my life is so fucked up. Amira left me. literally. we're fucking STRANGERS. fucked up la _|_ i'm really pissed of right now. i feel like crying. i'm fucking worried for Amira but she just don't fucking know it. it's so fucking depressing ok? promises are meant to be broken, i know. but i didn't know that YOU break promises. you broke it even before i did. you don't fucking know how much it hurts right?! waiting for you everyday. thinking if you're doing alright..you just don't fucking know cause you don't fucking care. can't believe you'd rather have Ana and Angel than me. it hurts so bad. eh, if i can fucking go to your house right now and apologise to you, on my knees, i would ok. i don't get why the fuck are you doing this to me. make me wait for you eventhough you won't even bother. but why do i even wait? cause i care la fuck! you want me to fucking let go of the person i love the most in the entire universe? hell no. never gna fucking do that. fuck everything _|_

Friday, August 5, 2011

Hot right? Heh :) my blonde nigga. i miss her :( she doesn't realise what she did to me has affect my studies and everything. It dont matter what i try to do , i keep on forgetting to forget about you :( i can't seem to forget about you. whenever i see you in school, it just breaks my heart to see you really happy being without me. like i'm nothing in your life. hah. i wanna know if i ever mean something in your life. i wanna know if those words you said to me last time, did you really mean it? it just hurts alot la Amira. you never ever spare a thought for me, right? eversince you hang out with ...., you changed. k la, maybe i shouldn't blame her. but she's part of the reason why you're ignoring me, right? i miss those moments i've had with you. you really know how to make me smile. being with you just makes me really happy. i don't want anyone else except you, Amira. everything just seems to remind me of you. you do know that i never ever wanna lose you, but you made it so easy to leave me just like that. i never ever thought that the person that i love the most would hurt me the most. you told me you wouldn't change, but you did. you told me you will never ever leave me, but you did. why Amira, why? i've ever ever regretted spending ever second with you, blonde (L) i remembered every words you've said. stop hurting me, please. it just hurts alot. if you don't need me anymore in your life, say it to my face so that i will not bother you ever again. but this suspend is taking too long and i can't wait anymore. i just wanna goddamn know! why are you even doing this to me? i just don't get it. tell what i did wrong. just tell me right in front of my face eventhough it'll hurt me. it hurts so much to know that you won't be next to me like you used to. what happened to us? i never ever thought that we'd be like this. i miss you. alot. no words can explain how much i miss you. i'm sitting here, thinking if you're healthy, you're safe. i don't think you've ever spare a thought for me. not even for a while. cos i'm nothing to you. i may mean nothing to you, but you mean the world to me. how? i miss you MiaMaya AmiraBlondeNigga :( i really do. i'm so sorry for the stupid mistakes i've made. i'm so stupid. i'm sorry. just forgive me please? i want us to be like we used to. i really do. everything was ok when you were right next to me. but now, everything's gone :'( love you, Mary.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

hey. it's been a long time since i ever blogged. everthing changed eversince you left. everything's a mess :( i really miss Amira Zy. it's fasting month and it's killing me :/ it's been a while since i've heard your voice. that picture up there is pretty :) eh wait, that kid in that picture is gorgeous. she's a princess (L) in ze comp lab now. today's date is 5/8/11 :(

9 more days and nothing changed. k ah.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Knn. i fucking miss Amira ): can i please just have you back again?