Hot right? Heh :) my blonde nigga. i miss her :( she doesn't realise what she did to me has affect my studies and everything. It dont matter what i try to do , i keep on forgetting to forget about you :( i can't seem to forget about you. whenever i see you in school, it just breaks my heart to see you really happy being without me. like i'm nothing in your life. hah. i wanna know if i ever mean something in your life. i wanna know if those words you said to me last time, did you really mean it? it just hurts alot la Amira. you never ever spare a thought for me, right? eversince you hang out with ...., you changed. k la, maybe i shouldn't blame her. but she's part of the reason why you're ignoring me, right? i miss those moments i've had with you. you really know how to make me smile. being with you just makes me really happy. i don't want anyone else except you, Amira. everything just seems to remind me of you. you do know that i never ever wanna lose you, but you made it so easy to leave me just like that. i never ever thought that the person that i love the most would hurt me the most. you told me you wouldn't change, but you did. you told me you will never ever leave me, but you did. why Amira, why? i've ever ever regretted spending ever second with you, blonde (L) i remembered every words you've said. stop hurting me, please. it just hurts alot. if you don't need me anymore in your life, say it to my face so that i will not bother you ever again. but this suspend is taking too long and i can't wait anymore. i just wanna goddamn know! why are you even doing this to me? i just don't get it. tell what i did wrong. just tell me right in front of my face eventhough it'll hurt me. it hurts so much to know that you won't be next to me like you used to. what happened to us? i never ever thought that we'd be like this. i miss you. alot. no words can explain how much i miss you. i'm sitting here, thinking if you're healthy, you're safe. i don't think you've ever spare a thought for me. not even for a while. cos i'm nothing to you. i may mean nothing to you, but you mean the world to me. how? i miss you MiaMaya AmiraBlondeNigga :( i really do. i'm so sorry for the stupid mistakes i've made. i'm so stupid. i'm sorry. just forgive me please? i want us to be like we used to. i really do. everything was ok when you were right next to me. but now, everything's gone :'( love you, Mary.